oh my god I jsut ate a huge steak and two mojitos...I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack..
It warm outside but its calling for rain. It is my day off...and it is very quite and uneventfull. to much red meat....oh my goodness my heart is racing..
To much time alone.This is not a good thing for me. Need to be needed. I just want to close my eyes and wake up another time and place..I cry becaues i am alone. i feel nothing but sadness. My life is so full that when I am alone I feel crazy.