He wonders if it runs in my family.

 Insanity.
 Ever wonder how close we are to it.
Insanity,
 craziness
or madness is a spectrum of behaviors characterized by certain abnormal mental or behavioral patterns.
 Insanity may manifest as violations of societal norms, including becoming a danger to themselves and others, though not all such acts are considered insanity. In modern usage insanity is most commonly encountered as an informal unscientific term denoting mental instability, or in the narrow legal context of the insanity defense."Wikipedia"

Do I know I am insane?
Do I run around pretending not to be?
And then why dose it hurt some much when someone brings it to my attention.
I love Life and all the sweet smelling yummy things that go with it. and live an the fly...last min. better under reassure. But is that right Is that good.
I refuse to say normal I know there is no normal.
And If I am to change. How do I do I do it and be happy?
(Be Happy..a moment in time.)

screwed over again.

I got screwed over for a promotion at work.
How do i feel about that. Well I've been looking throught the help wanted adds all moring.
I have a great job. Hard work. Better then min. wage. but very hard physical work. very emotional. without much gratitude. Yes I work in the health care field.
Why am I so bitter? Becaues it is the second time.
Why don't I file a Grivince. Becaues the girl that got it over me is very nice and everyone likes her. Iguess I will wait.
  I would love to be a personal assistent. Or a pro. Photographer. 
I can't wait to find something else and Quit this place.

When i don't know what to say

Did you forget about me again today. When no words pass between us when time together dosn't exist.Day in and day out we come and we go. A house hold runs night and day with one of us always on our way in or out. when night comes and we lay side by side and nothing between us but silence. I hurt so much I cry is there something I have done is it something I havent said. Where did our love go did you forget about me again today.

The Sun is shinning in the sky

Optimism is hard to sustain when you are surrounded
                            skepticism.
I love who I am when I am feeling my best. 
                     I Love to be Loved.

Saturday night

Ok bring on the spring..this freaking cold is killing me i want to be out side but I hate the cold
-16 in March is really not bringing on the happy times

I want it but do I need it

I want it but do I need it.
 My last $50.00 Lays on the table. A short grochrie list hangs on the the fridge. The emply Rum bottle awaits its return. Essentially I could have pretty much anything I want. If I want debt.
Credit is and evil temptress.